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qualmless

Ask me anything   i miss when i thought i knew what i wanted to do with my life. learning as much as i can may be compensation.

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    Except my raggedly ass ex roommate. She can literally leave here and die

    #me  #mylife 

    Can we just shout out to all the regular ass looking black girls out there grinding looking fly? Like. Wow. Against all odds.

    #black girls  #me  #mylife 
    Carefree black girl summer 2014 looks

    For the first time in my entire life, I feel like I have a grasp on what I’m doing and things are going my way.

    I’m almost entirely out of debt (minus what I owe a school that’s fraudulently charging me that I’ll never pay).
    I don’t have any legal fees.
    I will be able to apply for my fafsa again FINALLY in less than two months.
    I have a 2 bedroom town home that I can decorate to my heart’s content AND have the money to do so.
    I exercise *fairly* regularly and am eating like so healthy if hurts. Literally it hurts, smoothies taste like ass.
    I have figured out a way to loc my hair that I think will actually work and look cute on me

    My point is that I’m spending so much time looking towards all the good things that are coming at me that I really don’t have time to care if this relationship goes awry again. I don’t have the energy to fight all the time, nor do I want to.

    I am the most me that I’ve we’ve been and I am all that I need.

    #me  #mylife 

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    Alright so now that I’ve washed them and all that, I’m starting to really like them. I think they’re actually going to lock this time. Micro locs was a good idea

    OKAY I’M HERE NOW. 👏👏👍

    You are so late, lesliedill, liiiiiiiike are we even friends??

    :( I give up on tumblr quick because it takes forever to load, so I miss things. I’M SORRY

    Well is it cute or nah? Also, did you see the picture of when I first finished?

    Yeah, it’s cute! I saw this picture before I saw the first one. I think I’d be a little iffy on it if it looked like the first picture forevs, but this looks 👌.

    Yeah the first one is before I washed it and it’s all stiff and wiry like fresh braids are. I knew it would loosen but i still was worried too lol. Now that it’s like this I tooootally think it’s gonna be cute now

    #me  #mylife 
    My hips are

    Too wide for the barstools at this bar. I hate sitting at the bar

    #wide hips  #curvy  #curvy girls  #thick  #me  #mylife 
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Man, earth2esha, I don’t even have time to explain how many times i have tried and how many ways I have come at it. He’s knows exactly what I think, but he is annoyingly antagonistic. I have even tried to just not ever discuss race ever with him and he attacks me with white people “facts”. I’m so over it

I’ve been through this with an ex. If he’s not open to discussing your experience as a black female in America and he’s convinced we live in a “post racial” society (whatever the hell that means) he’s doesn’t have your best interest at heart and isn’t looking to understand your experience. My ex used to tell me I was overreacting to a situation that was incredibly racist but instead of hearing and supporting me, he tried to defend the racist asshole. I dumped him that night.

The thing is that we have been on and off for years. Like half a year ons and offs. This isn’t the only issue he’s an asshole about, it’s just the one that resonates with me the most. The good parts are very good and I do love him, but the bad parts are things just like this :/

I feel you. For me, my race is a part of my identity. It’s something I can’t hide or put away at my convenience. It’s a part of who I am. To be with someone who makes a joke of it or, at worst, refuses to respect my opinion about racial jokes or comments, he doesn’t respect me and that is a huge thing for me. Sometimes, love just isn’t enough.

The thing is that it is for me too. With literally anyone else I would be debating them until the end of time. And I’m very quick to drop people over all kinds of minor grievances to never see them again, but for some reason I just keep working on this one. I know love isn’t enough, but I have problems about this one for some reason. I need to let this shit go because it is definitely stressful. 
What I’ve been doing is just keeping to myself as much as possible, but that’s not really a relationship. We’re flawed, for sure.

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    Man, earth2esha, I don’t even have time to explain how many times i have tried and how many ways I have come at it. He’s knows exactly what I think, but he is annoyingly antagonistic. I have even tried to just not ever discuss race ever with him and he attacks me with white people “facts”. I’m so over it

    I’ve been through this with an ex. If he’s not open to discussing your experience as a black female in America and he’s convinced we live in a “post racial” society (whatever the hell that means) he’s doesn’t have your best interest at heart and isn’t looking to understand your experience. My ex used to tell me I was overreacting to a situation that was incredibly racist but instead of hearing and supporting me, he tried to defend the racist asshole. I dumped him that night.

    The thing is that we have been on and off for years. Like half a year ons and offs. This isn’t the only issue he’s an asshole about, it’s just the one that resonates with me the most. The good parts are very good and I do love him, but the bad parts are things just like this :/

    I feel you. For me, my race is a part of my identity. It’s something I can’t hide or put away at my convenience. It’s a part of who I am. To be with someone who makes a joke of it or, at worst, refuses to respect my opinion about racial jokes or comments, he doesn’t respect me and that is a huge thing for me. Sometimes, love just isn’t enough.

    The thing is that it is for me too. With literally anyone else I would be debating them until the end of time. And I’m very quick to drop people over all kinds of minor grievances to never see them again, but for some reason I just keep working on this one. I know love isn’t enough, but I have problems about this one for some reason. I need to let this shit go because it is definitely stressful.

    What I’ve been doing is just keeping to myself as much as possible, but that’s not really a relationship. We’re flawed, for sure.
    #me  #mylife 
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Man, earth2esha, I don’t even have time to explain how many times i have tried and how many ways I have come at it. He’s knows exactly what I think, but he is annoyingly antagonistic. I have even tried to just not ever discuss race ever with him and he attacks me with white people “facts”. I’m so over it

I’ve been through this with an ex. If he’s not open to discussing your experience as a black female in America and he’s convinced we live in a “post racial” society (whatever the hell that means) he’s doesn’t have your best interest at heart and isn’t looking to understand your experience. My ex used to tell me I was overreacting to a situation that was incredibly racist but instead of hearing and supporting me, he tried to defend the racist asshole. I dumped him that night.

The thing is that we have been on and off for years. Like half a year ons and offs. This isn’t the only issue he’s an asshole about, it’s just the one that resonates with me the most. The good parts are very good and I do love him, but the bad parts are things just like this :/

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    Man, earth2esha, I don’t even have time to explain how many times i have tried and how many ways I have come at it. He’s knows exactly what I think, but he is annoyingly antagonistic. I have even tried to just not ever discuss race ever with him and he attacks me with white people “facts”. I’m so over it

    I’ve been through this with an ex. If he’s not open to discussing your experience as a black female in America and he’s convinced we live in a “post racial” society (whatever the hell that means) he’s doesn’t have your best interest at heart and isn’t looking to understand your experience. My ex used to tell me I was overreacting to a situation that was incredibly racist but instead of hearing and supporting me, he tried to defend the racist asshole. I dumped him that night.

    The thing is that we have been on and off for years. Like half a year ons and offs. This isn’t the only issue he’s an asshole about, it’s just the one that resonates with me the most. The good parts are very good and I do love him, but the bad parts are things just like this :/

    #me  #mylife 
    Man, earth2esha, I don’t even have time to explain how many times i have tried and how many ways I have come at it. He’s knows exactly what I think, but he is annoyingly antagonistic. I have even tried to just not ever discuss race ever with him and he attacks me with white people “facts”. I’m so over it

    Man, earth2esha, I don’t even have time to explain how many times i have tried and how many ways I have come at it. He’s knows exactly what I think, but he is annoyingly antagonistic. I have even tried to just not ever discuss race ever with him and he attacks me with white people “facts”. I’m so over it

    #racism  #me  #mylife  #white people 
    My racist boyfriend

    The only man I’ve ever truly loved also happens to be the sort of person that thinks America is “post racial” and “we’re all the same” so he makes a bunch of incredibly racist, especially anti-black jokes that aren’t even funny and calls me racist because I say white people ignorant.

    Sigh
    Things are complicated

    #me  #mylife  #racism  #white people 
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Lol butt

can we revisit this? i feel like it was highly slept on

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    Lol butt

    can we revisit this? i feel like it was highly slept on

    #me  #mylife  #butt  #butts  #fishnets  #tights  #black  #hips  #thighs  #thick  #thick thighs  #curvy girls 

    Alright so now that I’ve washed them and all that, I’m starting to really like them. I think they’re actually going to lock this time. Micro locs was a good idea

    #locs  #braidlocs  #microlocs  #natural hair  #black girls  #black girl  #natural  #short locs  #me  #mylife 

    So like, I wanted to try locs again when I heard about braid starting and microlocs being good solutions to the two largest hair problems I face (thin hair with no curl pattern in the front). I tried for months before (years ago) with comb twists that a loctitian did, but they always unraveled. I think interlocking is the way to go for me. I guess I’ll see what happens, but if they still look bad in a few months, they have to get out too.
    These girls were my inspiration. Fingers crossed.

    #locs  #dreads  #dreadlocks  #braidlocs  #sisterlocs  #interlocking  #short locs  #natural hair  #braidlocks  #me  #mylife 
    I forced @lesliedill to exercise for an entire hour but I rewarded her with tasty treats: potato glass noodles, bok Choy, egg, and sweet spicy black bean eggplant. Yum.

    I forced @lesliedill to exercise for an entire hour but I rewarded her with tasty treats: potato glass noodles, bok Choy, egg, and sweet spicy black bean eggplant. Yum.

    #me  #my life  #mylife 
    How was I not eating beets before? They are pink vegetables. They were practically grown just for me.

    How was I not eating beets before? They are pink vegetables. They were practically grown just for me.

    #me  #my life  #mylife